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The narcissist's apology consists of doubling down on the original insensitive, cruel, unfair, untrue and/or exaggerated remarks and accusations. "Sorry I brought up..." Not an apology and meant to tear you down even more. 

I am getting better at remaining calm when people take it upon themselves to chuck human decency and lay it on thick with the wicked, mind fuckery. I chalk it up to old hurts from a rotten childhood of domestic violence and watching their mother become a helpless beaten woman. 

A blame shift cripples the mind of abuse victims. Identify issues and struggles with an attraction to watching hundreds upon hundreds of gay porn videos drives the twisted and evil person absolutely bonkers. I'm making that part up... or am I? 

I don't know what drives people, but I do know there are an awful lot of sex addicted men (and a woman or two) out there and it gets to the point where gay sex or sex with anything will do the trick for many of them. 

I watched a very, very upsetting movie called baby reindeer, not to mention my invaluable experiences in my own life. One "straight" man told me about his secret of sometimes going on Craigslist and finding another man to get with. He also told me that he's a bottom. Interesting.