I am not a "cool" girlfriend or wife. my solitude is too sublime to put up with a John mathias or Ryan Reynolds. here is a word of advice from the Fairies who speak to me, through me and for me:

To whom it may concern: Channel your covert narcissist "mother's" doltish, toying behavior on someone who isn't wise to their tricks. Cracks in your facade reveal the sadistic, 'I want you to pine and worry' side to your personality. Clean up your act, crappy behavior points to how empty you are inside. 

I focused, faced work of healing; walked through my darkest hell; dared to be vulnerable; boldly moved forward and didn't look back, "BE...CAUSE." 

Ripping you to smithereens is probably what landed you here. I don't know who did that to you... Choices... you can do better.